the greatest moment of my life......so far!

monday night we got home

she was in a great mood!

we walked the dogs.

she tries to tickle me now when she is in the wrap! ha

then we got home and she nursed

then we went to target to grab a few things for our

guest this weekend (gran and em)

she was hilarious at the target.

then she was crackin up and playin when we got home.

i got her ready for bed,

nursed her, and she was out!

so i packed our lunches,

packed our bags,

washed my face,

then i climbed in bed with her.

she sat up,

scooted closer to me,

wrapped her arms around my neck,

and went back to sleep.

i laid there thinking.......this is the greatest moment of my life!

then i started crying......ugh

stop it - suck it up - i couldn't help it!

my tears started dripping on her head,

and she rolled over......lol

i will remember that night for the rest of my life!

i love this baby more than she will ever know!

she is so precious to me.

can't believe it's been a year!!!

one year ago today -

i worked til 1:30 pm,

went to see dr ray for an adjustment,

got home and ate a salad, strawberries,

cantaloupe, chicken and drank a ton of water,

took the girls on a long walk,

rested,

watched grey's anatomy with tiff,

(she had a horrible toothache)

took a bath,

shaved my legs,

loaded up tiff's car and head to the hospital.

we checked in a midnight,

shana got me started on the potocin,

we fell asleep for a little while

then at 12:28 pm

raymak was born!

what a great moment!

her 1st birthday is saturday

march 13th

i can't believe it's been a year!

this last year i have loved every minute

of the time i have held her,

kissed her,

bathed her,

fed her,

played with her,

changed her,

and watched her!

she is the best thing that has ever happened to me and i am proud to be raymaks mommy!

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great aunts!

it's time to address a pretty great subject:
raymak's aunts!
my sisters........
they are pretty amazing!!

we love them bunches!

aunt em is.....
beautiful,
kind,
caring,
honest,
trustworthy,
compassionate,
loving

a man is....
good looking,
creative,
giving,
tenderhearted,
passionate,
loving

they are amazing women.....

they love raymak more than you know.....
they are the greatest friends anyone good ever have!
they are the the people i love the most!
both so different, but they have the same
love for people and are so kindhearted.....

i love them more everyday....
raymak is going to have a blast growing up with them.....so many great memories to come!

i am MUCH older than both of these girls! ha
they are so different from each other!
i had such a kodak moment with them about 11 yrs ago....
we were in macy's at the mac counter......
em was starting to wear makeup,
she was looking at lipstick........
taupe, mauve, nude, natural colors
a man turns around......
blue, green, black, purple, yellow........
hilarious
so accurately defining of their
different personalities!

it is crazy to see both of them in raymak
she looks so much like a man,
she has em's sweet peacefulness,
but she also has a man's spunkiness!

i can only hope and pray that raymak
becomes as great a woman
as my sisters have become!

we love you girls and miss you!

xoxo

i just call you mine

I pinch myself sometimes to make sure I'm not in a dream
That's how it seems
I close my eyes and breathe in the sweetest moments I've ever known
It feels like home
And here I am I want to be your everything
There you are
Turning winter into spring

And everyone who sees you
Always want's to know you
And everyone who knows you
Always have a smile
You're standing ovation after years of waiting
For a chance to finally shine
Everyone calls you amazing
Yeah
I just call you mine

I fall apart
Just a word from you just somehow seems to fix
Whatever's wrong
Oh, you reach into the weakest moments
And remind me that I'm strong
You've got to know
I'd be a fool not to see you even worse
To forget that you're more than I deserve

Cause everyone who sees you
Always want's to know you
And everyone who knows you
Always have a smile
You're standing ovation after years of waiting
For a chance to finally shine
Everyone calls you amazing
I just call you mine

Nothing makes sense when you're not here
As if my whole world disappears
Without you what's the point of it

Cause everyone who sees you
Always want's to know you
And everyone who knows you
Always have a smile
You're the dream that I've been chasin' after years of waiting
For a chance to finally shine
Everyone calls you amazing
I just call you mine
Everyone calls you amazing
I just call you mine

Songwriters: Cates, Jess Clayton; Lacy, Ty; Matkosky, Dennis

simple things

So, anyone who knows me
knows what an amy grant freak fan
i was growing up
(truth is i will always be a fan)
she has this song on her simple things cd,
it sums up what i felt when i was pregnant
and how i feel everyday now!


Looking for You

I've waited so long now
I've wanted forever to hold you
Now you're in my arms
And I'll never let you go

Whatever you do, y'know
I'll be standing here beside you baby
Just like a bird that's find it's way back home
I've finally found a place where I belong

I've been looking for you since I took my first breath
And I'll be loving you baby til I take my last
I'd like to know
What would I do without you in my life
From the moment I saw you I knew
I was looking for you

Can I wake up now
Can I believe what I'm feeling
And I'll be sure I wasn't dreaming it all

Baby it's true, you do
Something supernatural to me
Each night I pray to God that you'll be blessed
I need you so much baby I confess

I've been looking for you since I took my first breath
And I'll be loving you baby til I take my last
I'd like to know
What would I do without you in my life
All along I was waiting for you
From the moment I saw you I knew
It had to be you

So the story goes
Together ever after
Now the dream came true
And maybe when you least expect it love will come to you

I'd like to know what would I do without you in my life
All along I was waiting for you
From the moment I saw you I knew
It had to be you

Sweet love came to my life
I was looking for you

written by: Amy Grant, Dillon O'Brian, William Owsley, Keith Thomas

Matthew 25 vs 35-36

For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat,
I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink,
I was a stranger and you invited me in,
I needed clothes and you clothed me,
I was sick and you looked after me,
I was in prison and you came to visit me.
Matthew 25 vs 35, 36

this morning, driving to drop off raymak
this scripture stuck in my head
it took on a whole new life to me.

i believe that this is instruction on how
we should treat our children!

my baby girl came into this world naked.....
i clothed her,
she was born hungry and thirsty.....
i nursed her,
she was a stranger to me.....
but i felt like i knew her,
when she is sick...
i take care of her,
hopefully she will never be in prison,
but i would visit her! (lol)
if she is ever imprisoned by
drugs, alcohol, hurt, depression....
i will not leave her alone

for the rest of her life she can come to me
with any of these needs and i will give her the best i have to give!
i will treat her the way i would treat Christ in my home!

children are such precious gifts
i feel like they deserve the best we can give

yes, strangers are also important
yes, we should help everyone
but i think that many people focus on the people
outside their home......
what about the people inside that you see everyday?
the ones that may annoy you? drive you crazy?
not take out the trash?
not pick up their clothes?

i hope that i can always make a point to treat my daughter
no less than i would treat Christ
no less than i would want to be treated
she deserves respect.
she deserves hope.
she deserves love.
she deserves security.
my goal is to give her that!

she is not just a diaper i change, a nose i wipe, etc....
she is a beautiful person that i have created
she is only going to be great if i help her and encourage her!

i love being a mom.....
it is a lot of responsibility......
it is not something i believe should be taken lightly....
to me it is such a wonderful privilege.