reflecting........trying not to forget a moment

looking at the pictures from the hospital when raymak was born
and bringing her home make me want to remember every single moment.
it's hard to believe she was that tiny!
it's hard to believe she has been here for 18 months (+9 in the bellie)
her birth was such a peaceful time for me.
tiffany and shana made it perfect.
dr cassidy was amazing as well!
i just want to savor that time today and remember
that baby smell, that new soft skin, that sweet little face, tiny little toes
our first night home.
sharing her with em, a man and mom!
such a beautiful time.

gettin checked out - i love that face!

finally on my chest, safe, skin on skin.......beautiful

snuggled with tiff

loved this sweet girl from the moment i saw her face (really even before)

being introduced to alaina, shana was trying to make friends since she had pissed her off with her 1st bath the day before

meeting the aunts!(we were crying......just fyi)

raymak and her gran

i even love changing her diapers! ha

ready to head home!

so many kisses!

so glad she is here!!

i love being raymak's mommy! (in pictures

raymak teachin me how to play checkers

slidin at dragon park!

my little skunk

in plainview 2009

eatin blueberry pancakes the morning after christmas

the greatest day of my life

at a birthday party

raymak's dedication

walkin around gatlinburg, tn

sleepin girls

paintin pottery

lovin life

to say that i love being raymak's mom would be an understatement!

she makes me smile every time i look at her.

the day she was born, was the day our adventure together began.

we are always together and i love it.

looking in those eyes i see so much beauty, so much curiosity, so much to learn.

18 months of joy is what i have been living........i wouldn't change a thing!

to appreciate her humanity, her innocence, her strength, her fragility, her love, her laughter...........

it is my honor and privilege to be her mommy.

i thank God everyday for this beautiful baby girl!

mommy's haircut!

so my sister gave me a haircut while we were in texas
and
my mom gave raymak a trim!
we came back with new do's
we love them!!!

sometimes you just need a day!

days like this just make me smile!
i love this girl........
i love how she loves popsicles!
i love watching her enjoy every last little drop!
after this we rinsed off in the kitchen sink, curled up in bed and took a 3hr nap!
perfection

great grandad and some cart fun

great granddad, grandad and raymak

good kisses

great grandad and thegreat bday cake!

sugar rush, blue icing yumminess

smilin girl

crusin the driveway! yeah

love this pic of my grandad!

plainview road trip 2010

we flew to dallas on  thursday,
then we road tripped it to the big plainview on saturday!
aunt darla, aunt emily, ben and jacob were in one van
hannah and machaela swapped, between vans
me, raymak, aunt amanda, gran, grandad and baby (dog)
were in the other van!
we stopped at catfish o'harley's in azle, tx
braums in vernon, tx
and the final destination........plainview, tx!

so entertained

everyday she makes me smile!
she is changing and growing and learning something new everyday....
this week she is loving to color - she loves green!
she has found the moon - every night when we walk the dogs we find the moon and follow it til we get home. i say "i see the moon and the moon sees me, God bless the moon and God bless me"then she tries to copy me! over, and over, and over.........
i love it!!!!
on our walks she points out all the things we see (and have talked about every night since she was born). wrapped up on my chest she says "boat" and points to the neighbors boat in his yard, then she goes on tho point out EVERY single flower we pass........i love it more than anything! we wave at neighbors, and all the neighborhood cats. it is just our time to talk and share. (she is so smart! ha)


just last week in the car she started pointing out all of the trucks we pass......."tuck", yesterday she saw a motorcycle and looked a little confused!
we also sing a lot in the car!


i am drinking it all in and loving every last drop, savoring every minute we have together!
this morning my alarm went off at 5:45 am,
she had woken up at 4 am and i had put her in bed with me to nurse.
when i woke up she was snuggled up next to me, nursing with my boob in her little hands
sleeping so soundly and looking so completely happy and content.
we stayed in bed til 7 am ............ha!
it was great!
i keeping thinking i can't possibly love her more and then my heart fills up a little bit more completing me.

this pic makes me laugh........her 1st sucker!